For as long as I can remember, I've been a Christian. I'm the son of a former pastor, been raised in a Christian home my whole life. So, as a result, I've known God, read all about Him, memorized verses about Him, basically loved Him forever. I was the perfect Christian guy. But, there was a point in my life, where I realized that God and Christianity and everything that follows is more than just a Sunday morning service or saying a prayer. It's so much more than simply that. It has to be a relationship with a very personal being. At the beginning of my realization, however, I didn't know how I felt about having a legitimate relationship with God. I was fine with loving God, but actually liking Him seemed rather impossible, and, even more than that, it seemed boring. I began to drift farther and farther away from God, doing things that I was ashamed of, swearing up and down afterwards that I would never do it again, and then the next day repeat the process. I felt okay about doing it that way, knowing it wasn't sufficient, but I didn't seem to care. I was looking for momentary pleasure, and the world offered that, so I took it. I claimed to love God, but that was hardly true. I spent years like this, beating myself up about breaking my commitment to God, but still choosing to break it once more. Finally, I hit rock bottom, but that hole that I found myself in actually turned out to be my saving grace. I realized in that moment what Christianity truly is: a real, personal relationship with a real, personal God. It seemed silly, almost, that God could be my friend, my father, my comforter, my everything, but I finally saw that He could be those things for me. I finally took Him at His word, and tried to start a relationship with my creator. With the help of my friends, I began to search hard for God. The crazy thing is, I actually found Him. I still make mistakes, and I might make mistakes for the rest of my life, but I now have God as my advocate. I enjoy spending time with Him now. I love talking about Him and His unfailing love. I love Him, but even more than that, I like Him.

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